Tuesday, September 25, 2007

It's My Time Now

Ever since Lyle was born, Tuesdays and Thursdays have been our days. I've always felt extremely lucky that Baxter was old enough to be in preschool part-time right from our earliest days with Lyle. It has given Lyle and me a lot of special time together, the kind of time his older brother had with me, but many younger siblings never really get. Therefore, when I realized last winter that one of the best nursery school options for Lyle might require me to give him up on our Tuesday and Thursday mornings, I felt a sense of loss. I would have loved for him to go to preschool on the days when I work, but it just didn't work out that way.

And so, here I sit on a Tuesday morning without a child at my side for the first time in about three years. It wasn't my fantasy morning because in the end I had to take the car to the mechanic after dropping Lyle off, and needed to walk home from there, but I made sure that I stopped at a great coffee shop for a latte and a few quiet minutes of reading before I walked the rest of the way home through the warm, humid day.

Lyle marched excitedly into nursery school, just desperate to see what his teachers had in store for him today. With a little CARS vehicle tucked safely into one of his shorts pockets, he played with construction trucks in the sand table and smiled when I gave him a kiss. He was looking forward to staying longer today and getting to have snack and playground time for the first time. He is ready, and this is truly more important for him at this stage than the mornings at home with me.

And now, if you'll excuse me, I have an excellent Paul Auster book to get back to.


Speak Softly said...

Right on!

Lori at Spinning Yellow said...

I thought I left a comment here, where did it go? I think I said:

Enjoy your time!

Anonymous said...

My oldest took my 3 year old on an outing the other day so I could have some "me" time. After an hour I was calling them. I was so lost without a child around. Yet I know when he goes to preschool next year I will be to happy for him.

Hopefully next time you won't have to walk home and will have more reading time!

Amanda said...

How seet that you did get that time, if even for a short time. I envy you!

Niksmom said...

This is precisley why I want Nik at home with me right now...we never got that "normal" time to just hang out and bond. It will make the (probable) return to school at age 5 that much sweeter...enjoy the "me" time!